I FEEL DOWN TODAY. FEEL LIKE I'M A FAILURE TO THIS WORLD. SOMETIMES I WISH I WOULD DIE OR EVEN ASK GOD WHY WAS I EVER BORN? IF I DIDN'T HAVE THREE KIDS, I WOULD'VE LOST IT A LONG TIME AGO. THEIR FATHER IS PLAYING FAMILY MAN WITH ANOTHER WOMAN FOR THREE YEARS AND I AM MOM AND DAD TO THEM NOW. I LOVE MY KIDS AND WILL FOREVER PUT THEM BEFORE MY NEEDS ANY DAY... BUT, I JUST FEEL LIKE A "NO BODY". TIRED OF STRUGGLING! TIRED OF WAITING ON MIRACLES. I HAVE BEEN SO GOOD TO SO MANY PEOPLE AND HAS HELPED SO MANY PEOPLE. TIL THIS VERY DAY I STILL HELP IF I CAN.... CLINICALLY DEPRESSED! GAINING WEIGHT. MY HEAD IS DOWN INSTEAD OF UP. FEELING LIKE I AM NOT THE SAME PERSON I WAS BEFORE. FEELING LIKE I HAVE NO ONE! TIRED OF STRUGGLING... I WAS BROUGHT UP IN A PENTACOSTAL HOME. AND RECENTLY I'VE BEEN FEELING LIKE THERE IS NO GOD.
IT'S NOT LIKE I'M ASKING GOD TO HELP ME AND GIVE ME THE BEST? I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN ONE THAT APPRECIATED HAND ME DOWNS. I DON'T CARE ABOUT NAME BRANDS! I JUST WANNA MAKE MY KIDS HAPPY. THE PAST THREE SUMMERS WERE THE WORST FOR MY KIDS BECAUSE I COULDN'T EVEN TAKE THEM OUT BECAUSE I WAS SO BROKE. NO TRAVELING MONEY. NO MONEY FOR ICE CREAM. NOTHING. IT'S SO EMBARRASSING!
FOR SCHOOL CLOTHES I HAD TO BORROW MONEY TO BUY MY KIDS CLOTHES... AND I DON'T CARE CAUSE THEY DESERVE IT AND THEY ARE MY WORLD, BUT, I OFTEN GET SAD BECAUSE I HAVEN'T BOUGHT MYSELF ANYTHING IN TWO AND A HALF YEARS. I HAVE ONE PAIR OF PANTS THAT I PUT ON EVERYDAY WHEN I GO OUT (ASIDE FROM MY PJs FOR MY HOUSE). AND SINCE I'VE BEEN DEPRESSED, ALL I DO IS STAY HOME ALL DAY BECAUSE I AM BROKE AND HAVE NO CLOTHES....
I WISH I CAN TAKE MY KIDS TO THE MOVIES. I WISH I CAN TAKE EM OUT FOR DINNER. I JUST WISH I CAN SHOW THEM A GOOD TIME RATHER THEN ALL OF US BEING STUCK IN THE HOUSE.... I'M EVEN CONSIDERING SEEING A PSYCHIATRIST.
I'M CURRENTLY A STAY AT HOME MOM. I RECEIVE PUBLIC ASSISTANCE BUT IT'S NOT HELPING. I THANK GOD THAT WE HAVE A ROOF OVER OUR HEADS AND FOOD! BUT, NO CLOTHES, FURNITURE'S, ETC...
I WISH I CAN WORK BUT I CAN'T. MY SON IS AUTISTIC AND I WORRY ABOUT HIM A LOT. HIS FATHER USED TO HELP ME WITH HIM BEFORE BUT EVER SINCE WE BROKE UP THREE YEARS AGO-HE ABANDONED THE KIDS AS WELL.
I JUST FEEL WORTHLESS!
I FEEL DOWN TODAY. FEEL LIKE I'M A FAILURE TO THIS WORLD. SOMETIMES I WISH I WOULD DIE OR EVEN ASK GOD WHY WAS I EVER BORN? IF I DIDN'T HAVE THREE KIDS, I WOULD'VE LOST IT A LONG TIME AGO. THEIR FATHER IS PLAYING FAMILY MAN WITH ANOTHER WOMAN FOR THREE YEARS AND I AM MOM AND DAD TO THEM NOW. I LOVE MY KIDS AND WILL FOREVER PUT THEM BEFORE MY NEEDS ANYDAY... BUT, I JUST FEEL LIKE A "NO BODY". TIRED OF STRUGGLING! TIRED OF WAITING ON MIRACLES. I HAVE BEEN SO GOOD TO SO MANY PEOPLE AND HAS HELPED SO MANY PEOPLE. TIL THIS VERY DAY I STILL HELP IF I CAN.... CLINICALLY DEPRESSED! GAINING WEIGHT. MY HEAD IS DOWN INSTEAD OF UP. FEELING LIKE I AM NOT THE SAME PERSON I WAS BEFORE. FEELING LIKE I HAVE NO ONE! TIRED OF STRUGGLING... I WAS BROUGHT UP IN A PENTACOSTAL HOME. AND RECENTLY I'VE BEEN FEELING LIKE THERE IS NO GOD.
IT'S NOT LIKE I'M ASKING GOD TO HELP ME TO GIVE ME THE BEST? I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN ONE THAT APPRECIATED HAND ME DOWNS. I DON'T CARE ABOUT NAME BRANDS! I JUST WANNA MAKE MY KIDS HAPPY. THE PAST THREE SUMMERS WERE THE WORST FOR MY KIDS BECAUSE I COULDN'T EVEN TAKE THEM OUT BECAUSE I WAS SO BROKE. NO TRAVELING MONEY. NO MONEY FOR ICE CREAM. NOTHING. IT'S SO EMBARRASSING!
FOR SCHOOL CLOTHES I HAD TO BORROW MONEY TO BUY MY KIDS CLOTHES... AND I DON'T CARE CAUSE THEY DESERVE IT AND THEY ARE MY WORLD, BUT, I OFTEN GET SAD BECAUSE I HAVEN'T BOUGHT MYSELF ANYTHING IN TWO AND A HALF YEARS. I HAVE ONE PAIR PF PANTS THAT I PUT ON EVERYDAY WHEN I GO OUT (ASIDE FROM MY PJs FOR MY HOUSE). AND SINCE I'VE BEEN DEPRESSED, ALL I DO IS STAY HOME ALL DAY BECAUSE I AM BROKE AND HAVE NO CLOTHES....
I WISH I CAN TAKE MY KIDS TO THE MOVIES. I WISH I CAN TAKE EM OUT FOR DINNER. I JUST WISH I CAN SHOW THEM A GOOD TIME RATHER THEN ALL OF US BEING STUCK IN THE HOUSE.... I'M EVEN CONSIDERING SEEING A PSYCHIATRIST.
I'M CURRENTLY A STAY AT HOME MOM. I RECEIVE PUBLIC ASSISTANCE BUT IT'S NOT HELPING. I THANK GOD THAT WE HAVE A ROOF OVER OUR HEADS AND FOOD! BUT, NO CLOTHES, FURNITURE'S, ETC...
I WISH I CAN WORK BUT I CAN'T. MY SON IS AUTISTIC AND I WORRY ABOUT HIM A LOT. HIS FATHER USED TO HELP ME WITH HIM BEFORE BUT EVER SINCE WE BROKE UP THREE YEARS AGO-HE ABANDONED THE KIDS AS WELL.
I JUST FEEL WORTHLESS!